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Friday, March 03, 2006
12:56 AM

warning. this is long.

Blogged by.. nicryanlim @ 12:56 AM

hey boys hey girls, back after 2 months of obscurity and insignificant existence of mugging! Glad that the exams are finally over, and hope that i actually do decently well to maintain my gpa of 3.2. Just hoping that it doesn't drop as this years papers have given me no reason to be cocky, unlike previous years. For those who don't know, the subjects i have taken this semester are applied microbiology, analytical biochemistry, haemotology, mammalian cell tech, and molecular biology. Abeilt for mct and abchm, the rest doesn't give me a sense of optimism. In fact, i may even fail my first paper in my whole poly life, applied micro. Oh well, i'll keep u guys updated.

Heh, one of my close friends commented that the website i designed for my school was "fucking good". haha, thanks and was pleasantly surprised coming from one my biggest and ugliest critics chion chiat. heh..kidding. anyway he suggested viewing all the big listed MNCs (multi national corporation) websites, and for those with ugly websites(can't think of another word to describe ugly..indecent? unpleasant? ok. ugly), i could call them up and they would be more than happy to pay for their websites to be changed. hey, that's a stroke of genius brudder. din think of that. anyway, in the words of my amic loh gin hin, "i'll take note and grade accordingly". ( <--this is an insider joke. if u do not understand, it does not necessarily make u dumb). Alright, yesterday was the day my friends got their A level grades. And as usual, it was a day of reflection for me. Last year, one batch of friends got their grades. I was from the batch of 2003.meaning that i was retained for a year in tjc, before leaving for temasek poly. This year, i visited my friends in tj after they got their results, and amid the beaming faces and mandatory congratulations, i felt slightly depressed. My close friends all did really well, especially yiming and the usual nico ming cai etc. special word of congrats to ming with got AAC B3 (GP). Ming is one of the four really close friends of mine who came up with me from VS to tjc, one of the 4 VS leng zais.. haha. Last yar, kai got his results which was ABB. it seriously made me ponder what i would have gotten. I noe that i have blogged about my regrets about leaving tjc in the past, and i noe that i have claimed to have overcame it a better stronger person, but yet..will this be a regret for life?? this plays in my mind alot.

Yesterday i took the bus together with ming after playing soccer.. which was after he collected his results. I remebered it was not too long ago i got the highest among 4 of us for both psle and o levels. And yet it is me, who has the bleakest future. Can anyone convince me otherwise? becos of this, i feel lik a failure sometimes. I noe kai is gonna do business in SMU, ming is gona do accounting in NTU, and chion is gonna do...( eh boy,wat u gonna do ar?) What about me? How can the person who got highest for o levels be at such a level now? What would i have gotten? surely if those people can get As and Bs..surely i can do that too? Why din i fucking wake up earlier!? WHy? Why? Will this be the biggest regret of my life? Will i be a laboratory researcher with a starting pay of only $1800? Will i be old and at a disadvantage when i finally establish my career? Will my friends look down on me? Will i be rich?

All these play in my head. I really wanna make it big, success means so much to me. Its indescribable. As such, to overcome my deficiencies, i've strove to make myself more knowledgeable. Along the way, i've strove for the leadership positions which suddenly seemed more importand to me, picked up skills lik web publishing and animation. but yet it seems it isn't enough. I will never be satisfied with the diploma i'm taking. How can i be?

Lately, i've began to wonder if i could retake my A levels as a private candidate with the mentality of "if they can do it, y can't i?" Or maybe a part time diploma in business or accounting in addition to my biomed dip. I wanna do a business degree hopefully in smu. it seems to have became an obsession of mine. Yesterday , i chanced upon TMC academy, and subconsciously i walked in. They were offering business courses from MONASH university ( one of the big five unis in aust). It would take a 8 month dip 2 and a further 2 yrs to get a degree, all for 38k. Sounds good yea. It seemed viable. However the 8 month prep course could only be done full time. This is not in accordance of my plans which is to take part time dip concurrently with my biomed dip ( of which i am in yr 3). As such, i may enquire about a degree in accountancy from acca, which is the national accredition association for accountants. This is could be done part time. Alright, mental note to myself to check this out. Stay tune for further info. cheers and out. nic.

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