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Wednesday, November 30, 2005
12:12 PM

Your Sincerely, NIC

Blogged by.. nicryanlim @ 12:12 PM

Met u in the dawn of 1996
Was the naughtiest boy and you were the smartest girl
All i remember was me bullying you
And teasing u about your curls
Met u..the girl of my dreams
In the dawn of 1996

I thank you..for being mine
the day u became my girl friend
the day u became my lover
the day u became my wife
i thank u for the 3 yrs u were mine

I guess..it was a matter of time before u left me
The way i treated u..
Maybe it wasn't really meant to be
Maybe there's isn't you and me

I really thought you will always be there for me
Even when we were not together
I always thought u will always love me
Even when you left me
I always thought u will always love me
And my childish mind told me that one day we will marry

But now u have another guy
And when u told me i wasn't the one you wanted to marry
My whole world came crushing down
When my views were no longer the most important
When u didn't listen to me
When i wasn't the one who makes u smile
I realised..my whole world was you.

--+ time opens our eyes where we previously thought we cannot see, time tells +--

MY LIFE,MY STYLE

Sunday, November 13, 2005
9:12 PM

I pray for u

Blogged by.. nicryanlim @ 9:12 PM

L
ast night, I went clubbing with jasilyn, huiqian, michelle, and what's his name. Ha..Actually went to zouk, and it was the worst clubbing experience ever. Firstly, e tickets cost $28 (fuck!)and the music was trance house music the whole night( fuck!). E words of the song were non-existent, except for the periodicWITCH DOCTOR..so it went something like... pom pom pom pom pom pom pom

..e witchdoctor! pom pom pom pom pom pom ..e witchdoctor! pom pom pom pom pom pom..e witchdoctor. Yea, u get the idea yea....e witchdoctor! Phuture was no better..It sounded like..Puke-ture.
TCS actor Allan Wu was there, and he looked short. However, him going to a club like that? It shows his taste yea? If I have wong li lin for a wife..I'll be screwing her every night! However, he was shaking his bons bons to ..e witchdoctor! haha.
we left the club at like 5am. Went back to huiqian's house ( no..I was not alone) and we drove out in her family's car. How cool is
that? haha. Initially Was worried for the safety of my health, we had 2 jugs of vodka-ribena, 6 tequila's, 2 e33. Any of us would fail the breathelyser test. But she droved really slowly! Was concerned that the police would catch us because we were driving so safely. 5am at night, attractive teenagers with red faces, and driving so safely. Confirm drunk!! yea..Met her friend bobby there. BOBBY! He is the owner of the only yellow lamborghini in Singapore, and he likes to say " my car cost more than your house". My response to this.. "teet teet teet teet teet". censored. He's this disgustingly fat slob of an Indian guy who's uncouthed. Well, lick my Chinese *alls. Oops. Being rich doesn't give you a right to look down on others. You are not where you are today without your parents.Ok, I feel very unconvinced with the moral words I just said. Haha..k la..Good for you la.. I dun mind licking your Indian balls for your car. Na. kidding. seriously.

When I was online this evening, a friend of mine actually asked me out for a day of fishing, and she asked if I know how to. The only fishing memory of mine was that was I was a little boy of 7 years, being taken fishing by his papa at pasir ris park! That is a memory I'll forever remember and cherish. I wonder if my father remembers this as well, I certainly hope he does. Well, that day, I remembered we caught 2 big fish! He told me it was a garoupa. And from that day on, it became the only fish that I liked to it. Cause I remember my father holding my hands reeking in the fishing line, and it was the proudest happiest moment of my life, hope it was for him too.. Cheers dad

--+ You are all that I ever know+--

MY LIFE,MY STYLE

Saturday, November 12, 2005
1:58 PM

THIS SONG..I SING FER U

Blogged by.. nicryanlim @ 1:58 PM

All My Life
I'm So Glad...
I Will Never Find Another Lover
Sweeter Than You Sweeter Than You
And I Will Never Find Another Lover
More Precious Than You More Precious Than You

Girl You Are..
You Are The Only One ..My Everything
And For You This Song I Sing....

All My Life
I Prayed For Someone Like You
And I Thank God That I..
That I Finally Found You
All My Life I Prayed For Someone Like You
And I Hope That You Feel The Same Way Too
Yes, I Pray That You Do Love Me Too

Said I Promise To Never Fall In Love
With A Stranger
You're All I'm Thinking Of
I Praise The Lord Above
For Sending Me Your Love
I Cherish Every Hug
I Really Love You

When You Smile
All My Face Always Seems To Glow,
You Turn My Life Around,
You Pick Me Up When I Was Down,
You're All That I Ever Know
And I Hope..
That You Feel The Same Way Too

MY LIFE,MY STYLE

Thursday, November 10, 2005
6:35 PM

HEARTBREAKER

Blogged by.. nicryanlim @ 6:35 PM

Sometimes this guy's fine, sweet and show some signs of maturity for his age fortunately. I pretty much appreciate that side of him. Sometimes, he just falls in love too easily, and fall out of love easily. the egoistic, not-so-manly side of him surface at times though.but deep down, he's not that bad a jerk really. Just wanna say i appreciate knowing you.

hopefully we can still remain at that stage where im the complain queen and you're the uncle agony.Take care nicholas and dun break any more girls' hearts. you can never make up for it." ---testimonial from sharon on friendster

2 days after my previous post, my friend( who read that post) posted this shit fer my testimonial. I felt like rejecting it. Previously in my post, i wrote that me going around breaking girls' heart is a serious misconception of me. And she had to write something lik that again? Considering that she's one of my closest gal friends, i was pissed, to say the least. I do not know when i started having "heartbreaker" tag, but it had stayed with me ever since.

Honestly, at the beginning , i took this tag as an compliment, but now it only serves to irritate. Hence, i confonted her about this tag..she said its just the impression i give people, the way i "let girls into my life, the many girls i let influence my life". My response is.." WHAT?!" Heartbreaker has been single for 8 months now. I definitely do not flirt..so this tag really gotta go. I think of myself as attractive but just decently handsome. Her comments mirrored something 2 close class gal friends of mine( claire and christine) said to me. They said that i had a fling face, and that they would get together with me only for a 2-3 month fling..

Hell, these 2 girls are like the 2 prettiest girls in my sch, mayb to any average joe, he'll be flying to the moon after hearing this, but it just felt really insulting to me. I'm sure they meant it as a passing comment( they were drinking alcohol la..haha), but that comment remained stuck in my thoughts. True, maybe for the past 2 years,i've been changing girl friends like i changed my underwear ( which is once every month..kidding), but i realised the there's nothing more i want than to meet the right girl..at the right time.

I may have rejected a few within this period. However, in this period, i've had my heart shattered three times. I may have played it cool and unaffected, but deep down, i was hurting and heartbroken. In my lifetime, I've met 3 girls i really thought that i could give all my heart to and yet it hasn't turned out the way i want it to be. Maybe its just the type of girls that i have this feelin towards... cute, noisy, happy go lucky, pretty, simple, hurt, kind. It's just the way that she makes me feel, to want to take care of her, hug her, and charm her with sweet simple little things. But sadly, the girls i loved all seemed to be in a relationship, or just out of it. I jump into this type of relationship knowing that i'll be the one who'll get hurt in the end, but yet i just feel an overwhelming and uncoditional need to truly love u, because i don't want you to feel hurt again, and i want you to have a smile on your face when u see me in the day, and when u put down the phone, having heard me wispher "dear, good night" to you..

--*When someone appreciates you and wants to make you his first priority, one should learn how to appreciate*--

MY LIFE,MY STYLE

Tuesday, November 08, 2005
7:34 PM

The 2 faces of me

Blogged by.. nicryanlim @ 7:34 PM

The past few days, i've been putting in the hours searching for the perfect blog skin, a song that represented me, fitting an image of me into the right frame. Finally, when I was satisfied with everything, i realised that everything about the set up and asthetics of this blog was so unlike me, it felt like i was upholding my image once again.

The uber cool skin, the clubbing "pom-pom-pom" background music, the bad boy image of me, that has subconsciously become part of me. Have i became a two -aced person? Has the me of the past became a better person? Or has the present me been a eviler, more selfish facade of me? Seriously, are all of us putting up a font? The girl who means most in my life, my ex-gf of 2 yrs, camy, feels that i've changed. The memory of her crying when we broke up, saying that i've became someone she does not recognise anymore, has always remained with me. I guess that sometimes, I've to reflect on who I'm becoming, and to stay true.

Is this facade of mine a bad thing? I hate certain ways people think about me, such as me being flirtatious, me being superficial, having fab girlfriends that guys will die for, love clubbing. Alright, having bootilicious babes is a fact la..haha..but the rest..are serious misconceptions about me.

Yesterday, girl "G" asked me, "What did i do to deserve my best friends? " She was crying. I told her that best friends are people who will always there for you, that's why they are your best friends. It doesn't matter if u do not keep in contact, once u call them out for a drink, or a movie, they will definitely say yes. If u need help, they will help u even though u haven't been keeping contact with them. I was surprised with what i had just said. It made me think of my "supposed" best friends, yee kai( in NS), chion chiat and yiming (tjc yr 2). As I grow older, I realise that my friends and I are leading increasingly different lifes. But yet, i know that they'll be there for me in times of need. I've had lotsa gfs in my life, as such i've been rejecting my friend's invites, just to spend time with my gfs. But yet, they do not stop asking me out. I know that they will be there for me, I'll be there for them. And for that, i really wanna thank yee kai, yiming, chion chiat. Especially Y.K., who has shared 10 yrs of my life with me, thanks brudder!

++This sounds damn gay..but friends forever k.++

MY LIFE,MY STYLE

Monday, November 07, 2005
10:49 AM

Page 1 of me

Blogged by.. nicryanlim @ 10:49 AM

Recently, there's many things gg through my mind..Things which I usually keep private. Yer noe..I used to think that guys shouldn't have blogs, and they should just keep their feelings and thoughts to themselves, because ,well they are guys!Furthermore, I never liked letting my true feelings be known, because it'll show my incompleteness, and I'm not sure if I'm willing to show that( my ego la). Everything upsetting that has happened in my life, I want to hide it, because I know that if I bring it up or share it..It'll just hurt me. Don't u think tt's true for you too? Hiding something, building big walls, so that you u drop one less tear?

Recently, I read 2 of my guy friends' blogs (chion and samuel)..and I learnt things about them which I din noe..er..such as their english is not as shitty as i thought it was..and they are not dumb fucks..haha! Na, frankly speaking, i guess i enjoy readin your blogs, because i never knew you had such deep thoughts which opened thoughts in me.. As such, i would lik to hopefully emulate the deepeness and fankness of yyour blogs..and thus titled my blog, "my innner soul".

Upon deciding to start this blog..i guess i'll lik to set out certain objectives.. to share my thoughts on happenings in my llife, to keep it as frank and as honest as possible ( note: "As possible"..dun wanna get fucking sued.) , to reflect my mood for the day, and for you guys to give me comments yea! Oh, and anyone who wanna help me design my blog is gratefully welcomed!

--* A chapter has been opened..a chapter not previously released*--

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