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Friday, September 08, 2006
2:23 PM

Research at NUS

Blogged by.. nicryanlim @ 2:23 PM

Its my 1 week break now after my final exams, before my attachment Temasek Life Sciences Lab at NUS commences next week. By the way , my principal investigator is Dr Sergei Prokopenko, and i will be carrying out research on "Molecular Pathways Regulating Cytokinesis in Drosophila Melanogaster". Oh my god, its so exciting! It involves neuroblasts( which are blast cells which develop into brain and the CNS) ( blast cells are stem cells u idiot), and how by inducing chemical and genetic mutations could affect neurogenesis. I'm elated that i got something i'm really interested in! i know people in SMU, NAPFA etc don't share my excitement, but man, i'm so looking forward to seeing whether this research life is what i would like to do for a career. And with a investigator who's name is Dr Sergei Prokopenko, man. that is a Nobel Prize winning name! haha. So it has been all good.

I was frustrated when Camy commented that i'm not doing enough with my life, and that i am a lazy bummer, and she started comparing me with her class mates who have already started their own businesses outside of school and stock trading, and giving tuition and building up their wealth and portfolio. These guys are studying in SMU, are 23+ and apparently very driven. She says i don't have dreams and targets. ( FYI, if i am studying in SMU, 23+, i would be doing the same).

How can i have a girl who doesn't believe in me? What has this 3 years meant if she didn't even know my thoughts, my dreams, what i have done, the long journey laid with difficulties i had to go through? First and foremost, currently i am a scientific researcher.. I am not a business or econs student. It is something i might pursue in the future, but for now my job is to gather scientific knowlege, perform research, be curious and intuitive about the research and study at hand. Scientific research is long, non-rewarding, tedious, and often difficult, but ultimately rewarding. For those looking for monetary rewards, this is not what you should be doing. Science is about passion, about approaching the research at hand which your knowlege and applying the knowlege which you have spent numerous nights acquiring. And this is what i am about. Money is not everything for me. It used to be, but until i realised Scientific research is about pure passion and discovering the unknown. Do you know that a typical drug takes 12 years to develop before it can be developed? And many test drugs do not even make it through the lab testing and clinical trial phase and the project must be prematurely terminated at maybe 5 years? Similarly, for stem cell research and gene expression research, there's millions of genes to explore, stem cells have great potential but are presently not well characterised, the work we do will not garner monetary rewards in the short time, but are precusors for the future development and well being of the human species. This is what i find meaningful, it's my passion. For now, i do not find buying stocks, or managing a company of 30 people, or building my investment portfolio meaningful. It is meaningless. I hope u guys understand this.

During my exams, my target was to put all my effort and time into my final exams to push up my GPA. Nothing else. For my 6 month attachment at NUS, my goal is to successfully conduct the research programme in a state of the art laboratory, interact and pick on the minds of top international professors, in addition to going to the gym more often. Sure, i may not be building up my wealth etc, but that is not my immediate aim right now! y doesn't she understand tt?

I've set targets all my life, more especially so when i left TJC and my dreams of being a medical surgeon were shattered. To all u guys, i am proud of what i have achieved. I am very proud. I finally am completing my coursework after 3 years fraught with challenges. I was so down but not out, and now i have something that i can be proud about. 3 years ago, I set my mind to making the best out of my poly studies. Most weaker beings would't have made it. Sure I may be taking a longer and slower route, but not many people realise this road is much tougher being longer, and finally i can say " YES! I did it! I've did myself and my parents proud. I've proved to my friends who have always believed in me that Nicholas da Handsome is back and rocking baby!" Nobody can take that away from me. In fact, i have received my results for 3 of my 5 papers of my final exams. I got 3 As..if i don't get any Cs for the remaining 2 subjects, my GPA would improve dramatically. Together with my attachment grade, i should have a fighting chance of getting into NUS, NTU, SMU, australian uni, uni of melb. So why are u taking this away from me?! ( this is the admission criteria for dip entry to NUS: 20% O levels, 75% Dip, 5% CCA. 20% o level!)

U say that u always see me at home slacking. But that is only for this week. This week is my onli week of rest..before my research at NUS commences. 9-630 ( 12 hr). 5 days a week, for 6 months. Do u realise that a science course is THE toughest course in any institution. The long hours we put in school? Its tougher than any business, arts course there is.

The 3 years were characterised by staying back in school till 8pm ( with my best poly mate Paul..thanks man) just to finish projects, the numerous lab reports i had to write, the weekly tests, and exams i had to crank my head through, the numerous passions such as soccer which i had to forgo. 3 long years of that, has made me stronger, and i'm proud of what i did. Sure, i still have NS and uni, but do u understand that for now, i have nearly completed my poly studies with results i can be proud of, and tell my parents and friends " u guys may be ahead of me, but i will meet u at the end?" Do u know that means alot to me, since i was deceremoniously expelled? If i think the way u do " Oh its such a long journey, it'll take up too much time, all ur friends are ahead of u", i would have killed myself and given up long ago.

I like to view myself as someone who's been through really difficult times, and worked slowly but surely through it. Sometimes i feel really old, some friends commented i look and think older than my 20 yrs of age, and i think this 3 years have really taken their toll on me. I feel tired, but I want to succeed. Life's about making the most success out of it, isn't it? Each of us only have 90 years to make a difference, so do your best. Friends and loved ones, always believe in me k.

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